Thoughts on Motherhood from a Mom-to-Be
I feel so privileged to be becoming a mother for the first time in just two short months. Mostly, I feel calm, like Adam and I were meant to be parents. I know, despite the inevitable hardships, that we’ll be just fine in our new roles.
Even though we’re the first of our close friends to have a baby, I’m not worried about “losing my freedom,” as I’ve heard some new parents claim to be. I feel confident that we’re ready for this new chapter, and I know my friends won’t be too far behind. I’m ready to embrace a new normal and all the chaos, love, sleepless nights, and baby cuddles that comes with it.
However, when I spend a lot of time, mostly lying awake at night, thinking about what it means to be a mother, I’m reminded of the enormous responsibility I am taking on. Along with Adam, it’s up to me to teach this tiny human being so many things. I want him to be polite and respectful, but also know that it’s important to let loose and have fun when the situation calls for it. I want him to appreciate the little things in life. I want him to embrace learning.
More importantly, I need to teach him right from wrong. To be a genuinely decent human being. To contribute to society in a meaningful way. And, perhaps most important of all, to value his family and friends and be there for them throughout childhood and adulthood, just like his Dad and I promise to be there for him.
When I think about how I’ll go about teaching our son these important life lessons, I’m at a loss. I suppose, I’ll start by leading by example. But even that seems like a tall order, because I’m far from perfect myself. I’m bound to slip from time to time.
I haven’t even given birth yet, and I’m worrying about these things. But I think it comes down to trust. Trust that we, as moms, are doing well enough. And trust that our kids will pick up on this and meet us half way.